suvansh

wonder how it is

Phasing through my BTech Project, I have grown seemingly confused by the day. Not that I feel like complaining, it has just been a rather, should we say a mixed experience doing novel things. Research at primitive(undergraduate) level, always remains superficial. It took me six months of unrecognized labour to come up with my first publication. Things I thought would be a days work, proved to be objects of endless dwelling. And with all this, I feel I have been ignoring a fairly decent and positive end of existing self. No movies, no theater, no streetplays and to top it off .. no music!!.

Smoking has been on an all time high, it hurts my pocket and may be my lungs too. The transition from Gudang Garam, to Choti Goldflake, to Ultra Milds may seem like a conscious effort towards self preservation(lol), but, unfortunately I am still an addicted bastard catering to my lesser desires. Smoking to me, comes as an indirect consequence of excessive strain and brainless contemplation, there is simply too much to think as of now.

posted by - @ 11:18 AM